Hi and welcome. It's important you know that whenever you have feelings of suicide please call a suicide hotline in your area or go to your local emergency room or call your doctor. They will be able to help you immediately. There is also a link at the website you are currently at that is about suicide. See the blue link at the bottom of the page (psychecentral). I'm sorry that things are going so very horrible for you but they can improve. You need to take steps for things to get better, remember that. Many of us have been where you are at or are there now, too.

I, too, think you need to see a counselor to get the help you need. If you could stay with someone supportive I think that would help you, too. Try to just focus on getting yourself some good help now. Try to keep your mind off everything else besides getting your life in order and take care of you-#1. Take care. CQ

<font color=orange>"I must lose myself in action,
lest I wither in despair."

Lord Tennyson</font color=orange>