Hence, my ED, Anorexia, has developed because it is THE only thing I can "DO"! It is the only thing that is HARD to do and most can't! But I CAN! Now that's a sick sense of accomplishment! I have NO self esteem regardless of my "Mensa" status! This all just sux! And my father and bf have just pummeled what little self esteem I do have, that, I am having to distance myself from the abuse until I feel "stable"!
All the stress has landed me in the psych ward 3x this year! My most recent was a 2 week stay after yet another suicide attempt!
They say I have "Borderline Personality Disorder".....but I'm begining to think that the BPD symptoms are mimicking the ADHD/Dyslexia symptoms!!!
The sensory "blurring" of the Dyslexia can drive you NUTS!! It also causes phobias!!

I REALLY want to try medication! NOW!! I have an appt. w/ the hosp. shrink on Wednesday. Shabbat Shalom! Hannah