I only have 5 weeks left of school, and then I'm going home for the summer, which is great, but I'm also a little nervous. I've been seeing a counsellor here in Scotland since October, at first once a week, and now that I'm getting the depression under control, I check in with her every two weeks. I'm convinced that seeing her saved my life, and it's the best thing I ever did for myself. I've got a lot of my issues under control now, which is why I don't see her as often as I did, but I still feel a lot of things building up if I haven't been to see her in a while.

Here's my problem: When I go home, that'll be it for the summer. That's almost four months of no counselling, no professional help at all. I won't even have the same doctor -- I was diagnosed with depression in Canada, but that was right before school started, so it's been the university-assigned doctor who's been taking care of me all year. I just got a new doctor in Canada since my old one moved away, and I haven't actually met her yet. So basically, I'll be losing my entire professional support network when I go home.

I'm not sure what to do. I don't know if it'd be worth it for me to get a referal to another therapist, who I'll have to get to know all over again (and I find it hard to share, so that's going to take me a while) and who I'll only see for the summer. I don't need to see someone every single week anymore because the depression is a lot more manageable than it was and my meds have finally kicked in, but I'm a little scared of not seeing someone AT ALL. I don't think I'm ready to tackle things all by myself, especially not since I'll be living with my family (aka, the Most Stressful People On Earth). I know that my depression is no longer threatening to my life, and although it's still there I've become a lot more functional and independent despite it, and most days I can manage it pretty well. The meds are working, and I'm going to be at home in my own country, with all my old friends, so I should be pretty comfortable. But I also know that I'm not out of the woods yet, and I can't go back to the way I was before -- it's a scary, painful place and I'd do anything not to have to go back to that kind of darkness. So as much as I don't need to be in therapy every week, I'm afraid that staying away completely might become a little much for me.

I don't know what to do! Any advice?