It's okay, his isn't offensive. I have talked to my T about it but she hasn't given me much feedback on what I should do. As for my meds I reviewed a study showing no increased risk to the fetus during the first two trimesters, however, if taken during the third trimester there's increase of risk for lung developement issues and withdrawal symptoms at birth. I'm hoping to be able to ween off of meds when we are trying to conceive or during the first two trimesters. Even if I do there are still risks with non-treatment. I'm terrified of how being pregnant will affect my metal stability but I've been told it's different forr everyone.
As for am I trying to fill a void. I don't know. I think most of it is it just feels right. I'm married... good relationship. It's definitely similar to filling a void though. Right now our dog is our baby but it's not the same. You know? It does feel like a baby or two would make our family feel more complete.