I was in shock and was angry that he looked through my drawings. These are very personal and they weren't meant to be seen by anyone else unless I choose to. My T has been the only one to see some of them. I did resent having to extemporaniously rationalize and try to explain things that were private expressions.

However, he was so upset, hurt, and emotional...I focused on dealing this. I'm not sure at this point if he deliberately or accidentally invaded my privacy...I'm trying to just let that issue go.

I do tend to carry resentment...both past and present. I'm trying to let got and change my thinking, but success has been limited.
My defenses also raise very quickly and I have trouble bring them back down once activated.

I think my childhood experiences have also made it difficult to have faith in an ever present, ever caring God who is watching over me.

Aurorals, thanks for appreciating how tangled up and complicated

I'm just sick of the discomfort, the mental loops, and my skin crawling.