((((((hugs)))))))

Being forced to go to therapy doesn't sound very fun. Please, for your own sake, make the most of it though. If you don't like the therapist, ask for another one, but you deserve not to be hurt anymore, and it takes help to beat this problem. It's not easy, but it will be worth it when you are able to live your life and achieve the things that are important to you without being limited by whatever it is that has you feeling like you need to hurt yourself to deal with it.