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Originally Posted by PinUpGal
I would sit down and talk with her every day for hours on end about every little detail and if I remembered something that I forgot to tell her I would start at the beginning. This happened everyday for over 2 years, it got to the point where she set aside a 2 hour window in her day just for me to talk to her. Then after moving past the rape, everything I did that I thought would disappoint her or my father I would have to tell them. It sounds like a good thing but not very normal, this went on until my father passed away when I was 16. It wasn't until recently that I learned extreme guilt is a sign of anxiety problems.
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Hi pin up,
You may still blame yourself on some level . Guilt is a way angziety shows it self.
Guilt and shame are interlinked. Not sure if your mother felt any guilt or expressed it.
She certainly was there for you listening like she did. Did you feel quilty for her needing to take the time?
Do you remember that i was a neighbor?
have you had proffesional help outside of your mother ? if not might you concider going over all the details again?
No one is guilty for the rape except for the rapist.
Im sorry. it happened to you.
looks like your blaming yourself for having an angziety thats a mental illness apart from the trauma you have experinced . death of father and all .
I find it doesn't go away very easily. when I sit next to a man or mostly anybody I have periods of hiding my hands or parts of me. I feel a bit uncomfortable.
and I have been working on this for many years.
Patricia