my3sns,
Keep up the good work--not using. It's hard, it stinks, it's a seductive call back to a life that cannot be called life, call it Hades for that suits it better.
You've made it for the last few hours, and I applaud your sticking to it. A few more hours to the meeting...

Also, Thank You for helping me to stay sober and clean.
The anguish you are experiencing reminds me of the despair and hopelessness that I experienced...
Most of my days are good and I'm very grateful for them. The days that I hear that "Call" is when I call my sponsor, get to a meeting, and distract myself.

Your mother doesn't require these pain meds any longer?
Flush Them Down The Toilet.
Yes, it's asking a lot.
Yes, it will be hard to do
Yes, you might cry while doing it
Do It Anyway

If you feel it would be too tempting to do it, get a friend to do it...but there is power in being able to do it yourself.

You can do this m3sns.

Cap