remember, part of many disorders include mis-filing of information... that's part of why they are called DISorders...

Often pictures come to mind that are not fully the truth, but represent some truth as it was filed.. or misfiled... in your brain. That they seem so awful might be the main intent... hopefully, some things that are filed as so very awful might have been filed when you were much younger, and viewing them now wouldn't be quite so bad. All you have right now is the awful.

(((hugs)))