it's to much.. I can;t do this anymore[/quote]

Well, don't do it anymore. Do something else. I mean by that, to think different thoughts, choose different responses, ignore thoughts, act "as if"
until the feelings settle down. It is helpful to me to remember that the intense feelings do subside after a while. Time will always, always, ALWAYS help. K? What about music? Art? Literature? These things are created from intense feelings. Channel them. Create something. You are valuable. Your experiences are valuable. K?