Dear Hangingon....
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your dear mother...
I lost my own mother last August. Although the circumstances were much different, we are never prepared for the loss of our mother. It's a terrible burden when the one who gives us life leaves us. The hole that is left seems unbearable. We are left behind to somehow get through.
Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Come here and talk it out as much as you need to. You are not alone.
Peace.