I've been reading the Waking the tiger book. What happens to me does seem to be a traumatic reaction: Hyperarousal (hypervigilance), constriction, dissociation, helplesses. I do avoid a lot of things because I don't want to feel the anxiety. I also have a major fear of negative emotions so try to avoid stuff that might trigger them.

Not sure if I am understanding this book correctly, but it seems to be saying that all I need to do is find a way to successfully release this energy... But I don't know who exactly to do that.

I don't know what I'm doing in therapy other than whinning. I would really like to get rid of these trauma reactions and the physical symptoms they cause me.