Hi Im new here and I deal w/ depression, lonliness and hopelessness. I am so tired of isolating myself and feeling like Im a nobody and I hate feeling that nobody cares. Im 42 yrs. and female and I use to love life and could never stay at home and always looked nice.. Where did that person go?
I have a real hard time understanding why I have reached this point in my life, I've been dealing with this for about 4-5 yrs. I did many yrs. of various counseling and Im a recovering addict, got 8 yrs clean. I am on ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, I feel they dont help, tryed a few and I get very frustrated and begin to feel hopeless.
I have been trying to take baby-steps and try to motivate myself more, today I cleaned my Arizona/game room, I cleared my hockey table off of clothes, kids toys, papers and junk, its been 3 mos. since I have cleaned it, it felt good to get something done rather than laying in bed all day long
Today I have commited to myself that I will get at least one thing done a day, I want to be and feel better. I have 2 kids 6 and 7 1/2 and I feel guilty at times for not being more involved, Im working on that one as well.
Im just seeking to have a life and live again and it wont happen over night
But I know Im heading in the rite direction.iI have a boyfriend of 11 yrs. and he is not very understanding of my depression, he calls me lazy, he has no clue to how I feel, I've tried to explain and let him read up on mental illness, but still doesn't comprehend.(sucks)
Im hoping that this support group will be helpful in my recovery and I look forward to meeting some of you.
Thank you,luvboxers