I am back to saying I dont know whenever someone asks me how things are going or if asked my opinion about anything...last week was a bit better than the previous month, the anxiety level I felt has gone down, changing my meds I beleive had something to do with it although I feel some withdrawal symptoms but now I am back to feeling quite depressed, isolating myself, sleeping a lot, eating a lot, not doing anything....The only thing I do is go for walks which does help although I feel very dizzy and tired whenever I stop. So mixed up, so sad...I keep reading everything I can find to overcome depression and anxiety, it all makes sense but how do I bring myself to do those things when I have trouble getting out of bed????
I love this forum because it makes me feel I am not alone but often when I read the posts I can identify so much it hurts..I feel for all of you and I wish that we could all get up tomorrow and be happy and so-called normal but I have realized it does take time, just dont know if I have the patience and the courage it takes..
As usual, dont know if any of ths makes sense, all I know is I cannot function anymore...going to see my therapist tomorrow, I like her and feel a connection but I just dont know how much it can help.
One day at a time is way too long these days, one hour is all I can handle.
Enough ranting and raving from me
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