Elysium

This was a very good start! You are quite capable at writing out your thoughts and feelings. Perhaps that's what you should do - when you ARE feeling certain things, write it down. Then, when ever you feel safe enough, you can read it back to your therapist. Or maybe just tell him/her that you don't feel comfortable enough yet to read this aloud but you would like him to read it. You want her to know how you feel but aren't able to do that during therapy yet.

You are brave and you aren't whining.