Hi deliquesce,

You gave ample trigger warnings . I can see how torn you were though needing support for what you were talking about.

For right now Im choosing not to look . But hey just being here is trggering if you think about it . If it doesn't get triggered you don't know what to work on.

I 'd like to share this because Im pretty sure its on the lesser end of the abuse scale in this publication with out looking.

That being ..Covert abuse .

Both my father and brother practiced fondeling under clothing and newspapers.

I was so used to it I had learned to live with it. I didn't undersatnd it actually. It was untill I was in therapy and home for christmas that I caught my father watching me and the newspaper thing. I was watching a tv show .I was sitting on a couch against the side of the wall . his lazey boy was in the back corner of the room . I was facing the TV till something made me look back and I caught him.

I get triggered just sitting in Book stores and a man brushes his leg. It got so bad that I could not have a man walk up to me just in walking down a side walk.

this kind of abuse is incedious because you can't know what luid thoughts are running through thier heads .
they don't physicaly touch you .

but you are still thier play thing , thier object.

its not a far jump for anyone to see how damaging and on going this can be .

so for what its worth.

Patricia