Some great responses to Ponder Sannah, constriction is a new word for me.

Chaotic , when I read about your husband finding the pictures and him taking offence. You mentioned you were unable to get in touch with how you felt.

If someone is upset with me my feelings are not accessable if I am focousing on the other person or caught off guard. I put them on hold only to get to them later . So by staying in the moment and responding with staements of how one would feel in the moment even though not feeling them would be "faking it till one makes it."

Acknowledging how your husband might feel finding them while expressing that You feel a bit hurt and angry that he found your private drawings .

I Just rememebred a time I was cleaning my fiances apartment while he was out of towm for a week . while cleaning a cabinet I discoverd a pile of writings and saw my name on it . I did read it. It was him saying he did not see me as living my life for God and was not sure if he should marry me.

You can see why I might be upset. it was a message he had given me from day one for five long years.

so just to give a view of the other side .

Also I think ADD comes into play here with not being able to express things on ones feet . I was thinking this with what Sunrise wrote here too.

I expereineced it last night . Knowing what to say in my head but when I spoke infront of the group It didn't come out the way It was in my head.

The blocks /the shifting of thoughts, and the overwhelmed feeling when it happens .

I don't think thats dissociation . But dissociation does happen .

Patricia