I'm feeling very nervous. I have so many "issues" I can't keep them all straight. A year and a half ago my family doc put me on Lexapro for severe depression and anxiety. For the first week I had side effects and felt terrible. Then suddenly on day eight I woke up and everything seemed very, very bright, sharp, clear. I felt this way for about two weeks then my mind sort of settled down a bit and I felt good for many months. Now I'm back to claustrophobia, periodic temper tantrums, irritablity, crazy dreaming, nail biting. In the past I've had auditory hallucinations, scary. I talk too much sometimes, well, most of the time... then I feel so bad about myself. I feel stupid and berate myself. I have not been diagnosed with bp but I think I may be. My son is bp. (he's adopted) Reading about bp for him has made me question it as a dx for me.I also scored in the moderate to severe range on the diagnostic test on this web site. I don't know how accurate that is, but, I assume it has some value. I think I have an auditory processing problem. Things get all jumbled and I often must ask people to repeat themselves. It's so embarrassing. It's confusing too and I don't trust myself because people will tell me they said something and I don't remember or I think they said something different. I am overwhelmed w/caring for my bp son. He's been hospitalized twice this winter, head banging, suicidal, etc. And I have an Asperger's son. I know I need to get some help for myself but I don't know where to start. I keep it all together for my kids but I feel immobilized when it comes to myself. Can someone help out? Sorry for the endless post. Thanks <font color="purple">