Hi Bearchic34,
I'm so sorry that lost your beautiful baby daughter. I cannot imagine the grief. To me miscarriage is horrible, but to lose a full term baby must be more difficult because for 9 months you've dreamed and planned for your baby. I can't tell you what to do because this is your journey. I think it's okay to feel sad sometimes even though time has passed. You don't want to forget her. I know you are using your pain to help others here and that's wonderful. I had both my daughters premature 2 months and I remember feeling terrified when they were born early. Take care.