welcome - this place is so helpful. it's always harder to sort things out for yourself than others - i am fine helping friends out but i ignore my own. i guess maybe it's natural to want to deny these things to some extent - it's easy to think that because others need you you can't have problems of your own or that they deserve help more etc etc - it's just human i think.

i hope you manage to get yourself some attention and help - sorry i'm not much help myself :S

good luck xxx