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holder_of_the_dove · Apr 20, 2009, 11:15 PM

June my dear, your feelings are valid......and I just want to hug you and let you know it's alright. Everything beautiful about you comes from the eccentricity,insight,poetry that is you. Families cast large shadows, as do our pasts, you've come so far......and no...I don't know, who could, your entire story, especially me....but you know yourself and know, nothing was your fault, and you are an innocent in all of the badgering and discrimination. Yes, at times we hope, maybe for a moment that someone can change and maybe understand what they've done to us....or just understand us....when it doesn't happen, we must be strong, and if we keep trying and keep getting denied, we can only walk away from those pleas for reconciliation......but I know it's not a lack of church or anyone of those ideas family or religious types attempt to force into our brains......sometimes, and in all honesty, we just want to be recognized....and loved....but as many of the others who replied, I have to agree.....you must detach and even if it may hurt them, it will probably damage you too.....honestly.....i just.....ME, I would never give up hope in some small glimmer........I know what happened.....and June you know what happened......do what YOU want to do.....but don't let this grief eat you alive,........your graceful loving ways are stronger and more defined then this.....you are better than the abuse.........life will always be there, ready to drop the ground from under us.....it is only in how we react that matters.....June you know I care......we can talk about this as intimately as you want to...but I'm sure through the massive support system you have, you'll rebound recoup and be stronger than ever.....and...for the surface dwellers......heh.....shallow........plastic people.........no masks darling........life is beautiful.....life is love.........life is tragedy.........life is redemption...and this life through your redemption is for your taking........I hope this touches you, the way your broken angry, longing words touched me..........I honestly had to force myself to not be overly anxious in writing this........I got emotional....you've touched me June in so many other areas, and now, I just hope and desire most for your heart to heal.....life is about the change........and you are doing all the right things.....I am so desperately sorry.....But I will be around as much as I can for you.......tomorrow I have an appointment......I'll be gone when you usually get on in the mournings....but in the afternoon I'll be there......just with my love take it....I'll be my heart......and you be yours....If you read this tonight.....look to the sky and know how I looked to it as well.....and upon that sky I left my wish for you to feel satisfied.....among the stars is where you belong.........beyond the stars with the love you find and one day children........there........no one can touch you......or invade that space of peace....and you are deserving , it's coming for you........all the beauty. That day, when the lucky man you've been dreaming of comes, I hope I still know you and we can celebrate this together.........you are everything that defines strength....

Greater than all writer's fantastical tales
More epic than any poet laureate could tell
A muse of grace and tenderness
A testament of strength untouchable
Dare an artist to paint thee, dare he?
Just as the chisel and hammer, shake and quiver in the hands of the sculptor
As do all who should see thee
A loving whisper to cower the hearts of all men
You are the presence, the beacon upon the shore
Calling, "This way, to safe harbor"
And when all others have fallen to bed
You and you alone are awake, to watch the fire that is ablaze

For you June, I am here, as long as I am here

Kindred spirits- Dove