Thanks everyone, just though I never thought at 14 I would get so depressed for 3 years now. I've watched movies of people getting depressed and going mental. But I never realised that I am! Now I have a couple of days until I get help with a team of people. Which I never had before. I miss my friends at school, but still if I go back again. I'll end up in a mess like before. Need to sort out problems with me. Good luck everyone with your life!