Griffe, I'm glad that you got that out. It is so important to get stuff out like that.

You are right. There is nothing fair about it!

You are working so hard! The pain will lessen. I am so sorry that you have to go through it!

The good thing, though, Griffe is that you are learning! I had to learn all of these basic things too as an adult. Please try to focus a bit on these positive things that you are learning. One day the balance will tip and you will have more positives than negatives and you will keep chipping away at the negatives until they are only memories without the emotional baggage. This is what expressing all the pain is about because with expression it will lessen and leave you. I am so much lighter today than I used to be because I expressed all that baggage and got rid of it.