Welcome gardengift. I'm glad you posted and that I have the chance to find out about you, makes it easier to respond.

I cannot diagnose you, nor would I even try. I can only speak for myself and say that as someone with bp mixed states with psychotic features I've experienced many of the things you mentioned. Auditory hallucinations, talking too fast for people to understand. Having ppl repeat themselves because my attn span is minute. yes it's embarrassing. But I found meds help me with a lot of these things. I careful monitor myself. Keep track of my moods on a daily basis and look for patterns, clues and insights to my disorder. I'm glad to hear you're seeing a doctor and perhaps in time he'll get you properly diagnosed and on the right meds. Someone with bp has to be careful with antidepressants because it can throw you into acute mania. keep on eye on that. Please keep posting and we will all do our best to support you, encourage you and be here for you during the difficult times. Thanks for sharing. TgrsPurr. xo