No, I do not wish to upset a soul. I do not wish ill on anyone here, or anywhere else for that matter. As a child I held the belief that the abuse/torture, was just a part of "my family" I believed that the rest of the world was more kind and loving and people were nice to eachother. I am a middle aged adult woman who can honestly say that I am shocked when I find people back-biting and being nasty. I have experienced this in my work life as of late and it astounds me. I ALWAYS believe that people are doing their best and that I can find a kernel in them to love. I don't assume that people are going to be mean and hurt me. Now I know that sounds skewed, I should believe the opposite. In a way I do, I am a very private person in my real life but I am honest and I aqm caring. So this whole post is about I am confused and disheartened by the cruelty I see around me. I don't live there. If a colleague has a melt down I don't judge it, I support them. If they share frustration I lesten and want them to feel valued. I want to feel valued. I can't begin to understand the dynamics here at P.C., there are so many. It's like I never figured out my birth family either. My mind just doesn't work like that. I truly can find something to care about in almost anyone and give them a piece of my heart. I am scared and confused and I am crawling back under my covers.