Mmm. It was a rather nice post wasn't it?

I'm exhausted now... My whole body ached this morning from my gym session last night and I've been doing caving, sun bathing and cycling today. I'm aching even more! Got congratulated for overcoming the claustrophobia a bit. Eeeek! It was so scary! But now I ache and it hurts and all of a sudden I feel like crying

I think it's because I feel like...Well... Like no-one wants to know... When I achieve something, Charlene tells me to shut up about it... Like when i lost 5kg, I was so chuffed and I just said that I couldn't believe I'd done it... She told me to shut up then... I know itr's because she knows she's overweight, hates it and wants to lose the weight and hates the fact that I'm the one losing the weight, not her... But she could at least say something like "nice one, good job.." whatever. Anything just to make me shut up but at the same time congratulate me... It's not that I have to be praised everytime, it's just that I don't want people being nasty to me about it just because they're jealous...

I've put a hell of a lot of hard work into losing weight and doing lots of exercise etc. I'm exhausted today, but I have another gym session tomorrow and hopefully kayaking on thursday... Plus walking everywhere helps. I have helped Charlene to lose weight by getting her to buy healthy food and tried to get her to go to the gym... I managed to get her to come caving after a lot of "*****" "you're mean" "***** off". she didn't even thank me...She came cycling and moaned afterwards about her legs being like jelly. Sigh. When will I ever win??? It's all a front and I know it. I know she enjoyed it, otherwise she'd have not done it. GRRRR.

I just feel so low at the moment... Maybe it's because I've eaten more than usual today because everyone was watching me, making sure I'd eaten... So I couldn't get out of it at all.

Blah blah blah. I'm tired, exhausted, knackered, whatever you want to call it and I actually feel rather sick today. Maybe too much exercise??? NEVER!!!! Please don't tell me it could be!!

But then again... It wouldn't stop me... :/