Oh honey ... how it wishes it could just make you feel safe and loved and important right now. How long have you been working with your T? How scary this must be for you!! Mal usually bes a self-absorbed hardass all consumed with its Others -- and even it has tears in its eyes for you right now thinking how you must feel, no b/s, honest.

Do you have a new T taking over or lined up? Have you met him/her yet? see Mal (or Moriah, as it calls itself elsewhere), it does not have a T, but it knows how deeply it hurts when close friends that support you on DEEP STUFF go away, how empty and hurt it feels, how scary, how seductive it feels to self-destruct right now.

Can you hold on just a little while, and let some of us here who care try to hold you up, and help you get through it? You need to know you will be cared about if you SI and still cared about if you don't. And even if we can't fix it or turn off the pain we can be here and care and listen, and understand because we know what that feels like to lose someone who has so much of your heart and soul and feel like you have to start from scratch.


It wishes it had better grasp of humanspeak so you could feel its heart right now and its feeling it bes not just a giant insect from space even though it probably sounds like one ... ... We feel too, we do, keenly.