Miri, I think you make a good point about trying to "act if" in your own thinking...You made me think of the Little Engine that Could"..."I think I can, I think I can, I know I can." Concept. If our thoughts and attitude can make a big difference in the outcome of a situation.

I don't know why I continue to treat myself this way. Other than... I would really like to have a healthy relationship with my H... So I keep trying to pushing myself
beyond my discomfort.


As I reflect on last week with a little more separation... I think I took one thing my T said and skewed it into something harmful. I've mention before, that for whatever reason, I then to force myself into doing things that I know are not in my best interests. I think I get some sick benefit from forcing myself to do things.

It is ME who takes comments like Fake it til you make it to a major extreme.