Okay sweety let me give you a little advice from my experiences in life. I had a lot of lesbian friends when I was bartending at 19. I ended up dating one very butch girl and only going as far as kissing her. I have always felt so close and comfortable with gay and lesbian people. I am now happily married for the past 8 years and my husband knows that I am quiet the tomboy but I can dress in the 9's when the occasion calls for it. I also have two beautiful sons. My husband knows I find women atractive. (Angelina Jolie oh dear GOD take me now!) But that doens't mean if she walked up to me I'd jump into bed with her. There are quiet a few of us out there who can enjoy the look of the female form but still be straight. I can have a girlfriend if I want but I don't. I find many women on the street, on television, and in general very attractive but only my husband and my best friend ( and now you) know that about me. You have to be careful who you talk to and I want you to know that I will always talk to you if you need me. I'm 29 and I have done a lot of living in my few years on this earth. I can lend a hand in any way I can. Don't feel like you're alone it's just hard to find us. In all my 29 years I've only found three. So don't get discuraged there's nothing at all wrong with you. And don't let your parents make you feel like you're anything less then perfect the way god made you. Sometimes parents just freak out because that's what they do. They only want the best for you. If you still need to talk just let me know.. I'll be here to help you through this. It's hard to be alone and I don't want you to go through what I did.