I have been dealing with depression since at least the age of 15 (I'm 40 now). I was sexually abused by a step asshole from the ages 7-13, raped by a stranger at 10 and gang raped at 13. I have been in therapy and taking meds since my early 20's. Yet.. even after all this time I still suffer from depression.

I found out a few years ago that my real father committed suicide (he died 2 months before I was born). I think that he was depressed and I think my mom also sufferred from depression.

I'm wondering how much of my depression stems from the abuse? How much is genetic? Will it ever get better? I'm tired of it.

How many survivors suffer with depression? Have any recovered from it?