Hugs ((((((( ladyM )))))))))
Sounds like you are under a great deal of stress, is there a counsellor at your college that you could speak to? I think it would be worth you seeking therapy to raise your self-esteem and talk through your feelings.
__________________
Pegasus
Got a quick question related to mental health or a treatment? Ask it here General Q&A Forum
“Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by it's ability to climb a tree, it will live it's whole life believing that it is stupid.” - Albert Einstein