(((((SambaKicks76))))))))) Im sorry you are fustrated. And that things are so hard right now. Lets everyone sit back on this tread for a minute and take a few deep breaths. ((everyone)))) is trying to help you SambaKicks76 I think.
I want to tell you when depression grabs ahold of you at the worst it seems like there is no help.
I do know that there is. My sister lived in FL at the time she was baker acte ((prolly spelled wrong)) that act alone started her on the road to recovery.
Yes it is truly hard as you say and not ever state helps the same.
She did recieve help thou. But she herself had to go to the T. It was a very long road for her.
I know you are upset . If you are having thoughts of self harm please seek some kind of help. IRL.
If you need help, please dial 1-800-273-TALK
I know this can be fustrating too as I had called one time for my sister and they put me on hold.
Please take care of you and remember self care