I had a T that didnt help me and a pdoc that triggered me badly and said she couldnt help me - I have since found 2 T's that were happy to work with me and have helped me - the good ones are out there - the ones that will work with BDP and all the other probs that people have - you just have to find them

yes it shouldnt be that hard - it really shouldnt - but sometimes it is - I often fell down and lay there for a while before I looked again - but I knew I needed help - I couldnt do it on my own - I had tried - and I was lucky to find a good T - I hope if you change your mind that you can find a good one too
on the meds issue - thats your call - i amon anti depressants - cymbalta - just started - my head is clear - 3 weeks in - my old anti d left me tired all the time sluggish and lacking any energy - Avanza - this one is better - there are lots out there - I ma not feeling suicidal since these meds - I was on the last ones - jus tto let you know my exp - still your choice

take care P7