Ditto, I really believe this - there is only one way through it and that's throught it. But the promise of heraling is there, as well. I can tell you that i've been through years of therapy crying about what was done to me. I can talk about that part and not be emotional, yet the anger towards the perpetraitors (as I call them) remains very strong because I'm still suffering from depression. There is still more "stuff" to wade through. But you can get to a place where the memories themselves don't trigger a lot of pain. I'm not saying that therapy wouldn't be a good thing, but since you talked so much about the details of what happened, that piece of it might be done. But yes, it is a very tangled process and I think it likely that there are many more pieces to work through. This is a lot to think about ... take good care of yourself.