I've done a fair amount of work over the years, both with T's and by myself and am not triggered very often anymore about the abuse. It is nice, but it's an incomplete recovery.

I lost the innate ability to trust people, it's a deliberate act now and a very difficult one. I was just wondering how others experienced it. I'd like to make clear that the Friends and Family were not involved in the abuse and some/most of the Friends I met long after the abuse.

I think I cut myself off from support because I worry about becoming dependent on others and entering a time of crisis or trauma where others are not available for support.