Here's a thought...maybe to see if you are REALLY OK or apathetic about what happened you could try using a different mode of communication. In my own therapy at first I could describe events of my childhood in a flat, emotionless, 3rd party way. But when we started digging deeper in therapy I totally shutdown. I still cannot speak/ verbally present my feelings very well. For me hearing and saying certain thinks is just...impossible. Clearly... I still have some unresolved issues.

However, when I expanded my self expression options to include visually communicating...bam...I tapped into things I had NO idea where inside and affecting my everyday view of the world.

Maybe verbal communciation has become automated for you..You've already formed answers to all of the typical questions Ts ask to stimulate the emotions associated with with your past. Maybe you need to switch to a mode of communication that uses a different area of the brain (the RIGHT side). This may lead to some new insights.

Just a thought