Sweetie we are here all over the world, a lot of us are as damaged as you and don't put ourselves out in public as we do on PC. Taking time, lots of time, to get to know some is all you can do. Keeping in mind sometimes good people still hurt you, even unintentionally. I know myself, when I am hurting inside I lash out and hurt other which is just a vicious cycle and has ran many people out of my life. LK has stood by, even when I am completely a basketcase and keeps the reassurance up. It's taken 13 togethers to build me up to a 'normal' person and it's still a working in progress as you will always be. ~gentle hugs~