Lately my therapy sessions have been very unproductive and I feel like everything is just stuck right now. Over the past year I've made a lot of progress with my anxiety to where I am getting out of the house more, and the panic attacks are a lot less frequent. But I'm at the point where I feel like I've shut down, somehow disconnected from my T. I can't talk during therapy anymore, I feel awful for wasting her time, I almost think I should just quit therapy because if I can't talk and open up to her, then what's the point? I don't know what's wrong with me, when I'm with my close friends I can talk just fine, but once I walk into that office I clam up and am afraid to speak. She knows I'm having trouble talking, so usually she'll ask questions to try to start a conversation, and sometimes I answer her, but other times I just pause for a minute and just say I don't know. I know this has gotta be frustrating for her, but it's just as frustrating for me because I wish I could tell her everything on my mind and just let it all out. I even started crying a bit today during therapy, because this is frustrating me so much.

This same situation happened about 13 years ago when I was seeing a different T when I was a teenager. The beginning of therapy went fine, I felt comfortable talking about myself, and made a lot of progress, and then I just stopped talking, and even though I wanted to talk to her, something inside me just told me not to say anything. And she got extremely frustrated with me, and several times asked me why I bothered to come to therapy if I wasn't going to talk. And soon after that I quit seeing her.

And now with this new therapist it seems like the same thing is happening, and I want to talk, and tell her everything that's on my mind, but when I try to, I can't speak, and there's just a lot of awkward silence. I'm sure a lot of others have had the same problems and I'm wondering if anyone could give me some advice on what to do.