Hi everyone, I'm new here. I had a question in mind but after thinking about it in detail I think that I over analyzed as I tend to, and now I feel very lost and unsure, so please bear with me while I try to make some sense.

Recently I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. My doctor has suggested that I start taking medication for the depression, but I feel like there is something else going on besides depression, and I feel like medication might make things worse. I know that I am suffering from severe depression, but it seems to be at times only. My moods tend to fluctuate through out the day; further, they seem to be receptive to situations. I do get depressed and low, and sometimes it seems that the depression comes for no reason and other times it's a result of something that happened. Then there are times that I feel anything from ok to extremely good and happy, and the thing I guess I could compare this feeling to would be a high. Yet, other times I get irritated quite easily, frustrated, and extremely angry. There seems to be little cause for this. I also am easily angered, more, the anger makes me someone else and it doesn’t seem to take much for me to blow up. Basically it seems to come out of nowhere with lightning speed, I blow up, and soon after everything’s back to normal as if nothing really happened. Sometimes just someone talking to me makes me really angry and I start to have very negative feelings toward them, and it feels like I hate them, but these are people I love. Sometimes I go from feeling sad, to raging mad, to I guess ok and quite fatigued all within a few hours. It just doesn't make any sense, at least half the time I feel like I'm going crazy. I never know how to expect to feel, or how something is going to make me feel. This interferes with my life, because I function according to my moods. I can't ever seem to make plans because I never know how I will feel when it's time to follow through, even simple things such as meal planning. I mostly live from minute to minute and I can’t see past my mood at any given time. I just feel so lost, I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this. I honestly think that I’m slowly destroying my life, and I do feel like I’m going insane, and I just don’t know what’s wrong with me. Is all of this typical of depression?? I feel so lost and confused, I thought I had a pretty good understanding of depression but now I feel that I know less than I did before I started actively learning about it. I guess I should end this here, my apologies for this entry being this long.