cusack10,

I know you were hearing these gossip voices the other day...I think that maybe in your country of China that the psychology field in behind the western countries in trying to help all psychological problems, not just yours. I would imagine it would be hard to find help there, but I have found it hard to get help here too on certain problems that many of the psychological professional field don't want to help.

The madness you speak of is not looked at as madness....it is just a symptom of what you are going through. It would take a professional to really deal with your problems since it probably deals with issues that you have experiences in your life. Lack of sleep can also be a symptom, but could possibly be a cause....but it would take a professional to identify what your problem really is.

I do hope you can find the necessary help you need...keep searching because it is important so you can deal with your future....we are here to coach as much as we can. There are some here that might be knowledgable about the Chinese cultrue & environment that can better provide you with answers you need....others of us can hopefully give you some moral support until you can find the help you need.

Hoping things go better,
Debbie