Well I appreciate the thoughts and insight given. It seems that I am leaning towards ending things. I wouold really appreciate anyones thoughts and advice.
We are going to go on a little trip this weekend. Nothing big just a relaxing over nighter.
I didnt mention earlier that one time....long long ago I was dating and engaged to a girl for a few years. .....Things seemed very much like this.........eventually I found out she was going out while I was away and messing around sort of. I broke it off immediately when found out. I eventually met a gal who I married and for 15 years llife was perfect.....children etc.......then out of the blue we didnt love each other.....or she didnt love me i guess. Bitter is pretty muhc the proper word to say how I felt. I never expected divorce in my life....it happened to eveyone else but not me.
It took me a long time to find someone to date......I was pretty good being alone...I worked and raised my kids, but now after 4 years of being involved with this gal and her attitude lately I feel like I am just better off alone. Im not a casual dater at all......not interested in this. I would say that together our intimate life has been very good......very deep and intense. The way it should be.......no problems there for us. It relly si the time away fomr each other and her sudden need to be out in a social atmosphere rather than home. Someone actually suiggested if she wanted to be active and social why doesn't she do some volunteer work since she lives in an area that there are many types of organizations like that. I certinaly agree wiht that, it really si the bar room syndrome I guess that i cant get over.
Now I am very worried about any kind of intimacy! I know it seems stupid and imature and although I have no proof to suggest that she might have been involved in a casual encounter.......Im am just freaking out about this weekend! I really jus wanted to hang out and relax this weekend not have some romantic interlude. While I was in the Navy (7 years) I never took liberty like that. The hwole AID things scares the heck out of me. I guess it is funny that I would be so worried abut this, but I am. I feel violated by her and just dont feel I should be subjected to any risk or possibility.
Well I guess I will post after this weekend if I even get the courage to actually go. Right now it is still on!

Thank you thought to eveyrone who has responded...I sincerely appreciate hearing others points of views.