I have always found school difficult, not because I find the material's hard, but because I have a lot of problems focusing and with self discipline.

I could get away with this in high school because the work load was smaller and I could never study and still know all the material (except for math, I"m slow at math). I could even do this in my college level courses.

But now that I am in college, I seem to be screwing up royally!

Inbetween, work, my chaotic home life, my mental health issues, and the exhausting drive to campus everyday, I have flunked two classes and I am on my way to flunking two more.

I just don't understand why I am doing this! I am so darn stupid

I find it so hard to focus and do the homework, or I'm so exhausted I just want to go home and lay down. If only I had more self discipline! If only I was a better student! UGH!

Someone help! I need advice, I can't keep screwing up like this or I will never get done with my associates of liberal arts and never get to move on to my bachelors work in English. I'm just so upset and disappointed in myself right now