Thank you for the kindnesses everyone. I would like to try and explain a little more. I know that thee are people who do bad things, see it all of the time. But in my life, the people I chose to be with, coming here, I choose to believe that we are good, trying our hardest and I want to be loving and respectful. I am really not trying to explain as much as understand. I get overwhelmed, I am now. I would like to believe that every one of us would stop and pick up the dropped book or baby bootie and return it with warmth and a smile. No, I am not thinking black and white. I just must beleive that life is suffering for all of us but that we can make it better by our small actions. We each have power. Here, much of that power is in kindness. Like the offer to be closeer and help carry the load right now. Thank you. I know that is heart felt. You can come play mommy, mechanic, housekeeper, nurse any time you all want. Thanks for letting me try and understand this all better.