i'm sorry for this ramble last night - i got drunk - again. i think i need to do something about that. i have this problem that i can't open a bottle of wine and not finish it... i'm fine when other people are around to drink some with me etc, i'm fine on nights out - but nights in alone drinking are a bad thing. i get over tearful, over emotional, prone to rage etc, last night i smashed a wine glass (a full one) over my desk over something really really stupid and small. i was abusing people all over, shouting and swearing.

i'm guessing it's down to stress that i'm having at the moment, but it has to stop. at least until exams are finished i'm not going to drink alone, AT ALL.

i have to get this back under control - it's been a long time since i've drunk like this.

also, if i offended anyone either here or in chat, i'm sorry, i was a bit out of it and i doubt i meant much of what i said (not that i can remember much)