Some people really won't understand us. But it's good that you recognize that fact, and I hope that because you do, you won't let it get you down. You can't change people's opinions but you can decide how much of an impact those opinions are going to have on you. I know you haven't been feeling well and I know that if you say you're not up to anything, it's because you're just
not. No shame in that whatsoever.
Take care of you.