I don't even know where to start.....I have two kids and I'm a single mother. My sons father is a monster who was just paroled after serving 9 years for an attempted murder charge for trying to kill me and my son, my daughters father is a drug addicted who has been unemployed for her entire 4 years of life so needless to say I don't recieve a dime to help me care for my kids. I have made terrible choices in my relationships that I am paying dearly for now. My entire life is lived in a constant state of fear...fear of being stalked again and maybe even killed by my ex when I'm leaving the store or who knows where and everyone tells me I should leave the state I live in and start a new life........nice thought, but how do I do that when it takes every penny I have just to keep our home and the bills going?????? I just recently lost my job...and the stress is more than I can stand

I had a bad life groing up with an alcoholic father and a mother who was less than motherly to put it mild, we were very poor and I was one sad little girl my whole childhood. Now my adult life is a strain as well, I just keep asking God to please lift some of the wieght off of my shoulders, just a small amount because it is crushing me.My mother always has told me that God will never give you more then you can handle...well I'm there its to much for me and I guess i just needed to say that out loud.......