
Apr 24, 2009, 12:32 AM
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Member Since: Sep 2007
Location: Colorado
Posts: 9,092
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The thing is, it's not easier to not be, because you'd have to make it happen. And it's not really what you want... I see that in every word here. You want to be BETTER. Meaning the hurt, the pain will go away.
I also used to help my friends out a lot and have felt I was out of action, that it was pointless. I am now at a point where I am beginning to see ahead. I do think you can get back to a point where you can help people again too.
I want to share a recent experience with you here... I was not there for my friends for... erm... quite a while. I hated it. But I'm beginning to be able to again. And it is WONDERFUL. Just small things now - but that's the beginning. Tonight my friend my bf and I baked a cake and laughed, talked and had a lot of fun - legitimate fun. I gave what advice I had for a few of her problems... the whole thing felt so good. I think you can reach a point like that again.
You have not gone so far that it can not get better. It will be hard, but you can get better if you take things step by step.
I guess that's my advice. Take things slowly. reach out for the help you need. And don't give up. If you get whacked down keep getting back up - because it's worth it.
Please don't punish. It don't do any good. Taking things as they come, slowly and trying to learn to love yourself are the most important things to do.       
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Yesterday I was so clever, so I want to change the world.
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.
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