I am so tired of all the rituals and the thoughts. I can't even wipe a surface clean without feeling like I have to change wipes several times, because I don't want to spread dust from one end to the other. I have to wipe so many things to keep dust from accumulating. There are some things that dust is all over and I can't deal with it, so I don't touch those things or go near them. I HATE THIS!!!

The meds suck! I'm on like five of them now, and they take the edge off my anxiety, but the OCD is too strong. I want to live my life, and I have so much I want to do, but now I'm 41, and life grows shorter. Plus, I have to worry about health issues (which are complicated by my OCD) that might limit the time I have to reach my goals, as well.

I hate this so much!!!!!!! I'm so tired of all my rituals, and I just want to be able to move about and do things like normal people. I want to pursue my dreams. Even getting the computer out is a chore. I'm so frustrated!!!!! I have dreams, and opinions, and ideas, and I feel like none of it matters, because I can't get out and pursue them, share them and be active in life!