hi, I'm with Stevie. In may I'm going to turn 34... Well, this last year I've had the same thoughts that you've had. I know that turning thirty something turns your mind and makes you think about your life and what you have done so far. It seems that at thirty something you HAVE TO have many things in life accomplished... The time has come to ask yourself maybe what you really want, don't go by what others have(like friends that have family, home, car, whatever...) or want for you. You are not old at all and you are just at the right moment to to take control of your own life and make deep-interesting relationships that won't run away just because of your age. Keep your mind open to life and new people since you can have a surprise, who knows. And yes, work with yourself from the inside, that's where the real treasure is.

By the way, this last year, since november up until the present day, I decided to make a big change in life. I broke up with an 8yr old relationship. I have never had children, yes it would be something I would like to accomplish but with the person I love. I had a hard accepting to myself that I was really not in love with my former relationship. Still, I keep my hopes in some way, who knows... Well, I started a university degree which I'm happy with, and hope to be able to turn into a professional some day... I really want to live life, and some day have a relationship or whatever comes up, right now I just don't know. This last year has been specially hard, since I made a hard decision with my former relationship(I'm on good terms with him) and had to come to my mom's again and depend on her. This last year I also lost a job, and I haven't been working... But in july I have a new opportunity for a new job in a different city and I'm going for it! well, I'm scared, unshure, etc. Well, this is more or less what's happened in my life lately...!

What triggered all of this? Well, for most part of my life I've felt lonely, deeply unsatisfied, my self esteem on the floor, a total crash... Thanks to my family I've had great support. I got myself finally to a Therapist and started to get help. I've had many issues: shyness, introvertness,overweight, etc. How do I deal with all of this? One by one. I'm also getting my driver's liscense(at 34!!!) Now i'm not so anxious like when I arrived home after an 8yrs absence. I'm starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel...
Life, society, friends,etc may have a scheduled time table to do things but the truth is that you have all the time of the world to work on yourself. By the way, there is something positive in your msg, since you say that one of the guys said that he thought that you were 23!!! well,that's an advantage you must take care of as a woman. I'm doing that also and it has good results!

Yes I have often looked over the shoulder of other friends lives: they have family, children, a home, a great job, a great husband/wife, whatever... I've often felt that I didn't have any of these. So, I must do something in order to change this situation. I guess I'm just at the begaining of my own path and it can be exciting, unsure, etc! That's the good part.

hope I helped in some way, Rap