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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
I hate knowing that so much of my life has been directed by something of significance in the past - that I blew off - and now I am 34 years old and a mess.
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OMG... this is similar to what I have been going through. Your trying to do your best to engage in the therapy process so you feel compelled to mention something from the past that you thought was no big deal. THEN you realize holly crap... these events were a big deal and start seeing all of the collateral damage they've created through out your life. It makes me so sick to my stomach when I think about what I have subconsciously done to myself all these year because of things that happened when I was 8-11 years old.
(((mixedup))) hang in there. All you can do is shake your head and try to change things from here on out. ...Still a totally depressing realization.
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